I am almost physically sick with worry and pretending not to be, as most people don't really get what I'm dealing with anyway.. Ironically having spent a week laying on a sun lounger my hips are feeling much better as they do with less activity. The downside is I want them to hurt as normal, as some days I would fearlessly check myself into surgery there and then, due to the pain!
Positive, positive, stay positive!!! arrrhhh...
I can not imagine what state I'll be in by the 8th or 9th of July, I'll probably be on the run with a bottle full of diazapam. Well I'm going to go into Harrogate shopping to:
1. Buy hospital stay over stuff.
2. Walk around enough to bring on all the symptoms and begin limping again.
3. Test how many pre op panic attacks I can bring on for sport!
Breath, breath... calm..